First things first- it’s been HARD. Like, really challenging on some days! Why is it so easy to throw out compliments to others, but yet be so difficult to turn around give ourselves a pat on the back? One thing that I’m really trying to focus on is turning every negative thought/feeling/emotion that I have into something positive. For example, last Saturday (the day before the race) it turned out that I would have to travel solo to the marathon (Alex had a bad cold and honestly, I did NOT want to catch it). The first thing that popped into my head -> “I’m going to have to drive down there the morning of, my legs will be stiff, and there goes my goal race time”. THEN I realized what any opportunity this was. It wasn’t a negative. I would be able to FULLY focus on myself, the job that I had to do when I was there, and not worry about others at the start/finish line freezing in the rain waiting for me/ letting them down/ etc. I realized that it was a gift and I would use it to my advantage.
Another thing that I’m continuing to do is to build up my positive affirmations to myself. Whether it is dressing nicer for a ‘day off’ just to make myself feel more confident, booking that hair cut appointment for myself that I haven’t had time/money to do in almost a year, creating and honoring a schedule that works for me (and not taking other into account -> sometimes you HAVE to be selfish (but it’s also really nice to fit others into your life too!)), and holding myself to a higher standard if I didn’t perform my best.